Being that I can no longer talk about my work as freely as I want because my job now has confidential agreements that I signed. I like my job and want to KEEP it and refuse to do anything to hinder it.
So this means I am going to merge my mommy blog “Just Another Girl With Tattoos“ With this one. I will not be posting everything here, so be prepared. It will mostly still be mommy stuff, but still be fun and enjoyable, I hope.
I hope people don’t freek, but I hope it doesn’t get confusing, but it may 
But that is how I roll..heh
Well, it’s been a while since I wrote, I have had a lot going on. *looking* I see my last update was Sep ’09. Well, Xmas was good, New Year was better and I GOT A NEW JOB. That’s right, my job in the automotive industry has officialy become my hobby again!! I’m SO happy for several reasons. I am at a GOOD job with GREAT benefits, I am actually getting paid, I don’t have to worry about the stress as I did working for dad. There is A LOT in and out of working with dad that I don’t have to worry about anymore.
I am officially working for the county. In my deep subconscience need to help people, I have gotten on with the county. I have my foot in the door and feel that this is a GIANT step for me in the RIGHT direction. I AM so excited and for the first time in MANY years I am actually EAGER to go to school.
More as it happens. I plan on writing more for my mommy side, being my work in now confidential information, that will be few and far between.
PEACE
It seems I have not posted in a while. There has been quite a bit going on. LM is growing like a weed and I have been developing myself spiritually at which point I have been keeping up with that on my other blog. www.holisticempath.com I feel it is best to keep sides of someone seperate. That way it keeps people from not wanting to read due to my opinions all over.
I did not realize how difficult, loving, caring, wonderful being a mom truly is. I am so excited about being a mother considering I would have never thought about it. I am so grateful and thankful for everything in my life.
I hope that everyone can experience. More to come I am being distracted by King of the Hill
Well, today was check up day. He is 18.19 lbs, 27.5 inches long, and is HEAVY. His nose started running a few days ago but it is nothing serious. Doc feels it is a head cold that is associated with his teeth coming in. Let’s hope so.
All I can say is he has come a LONG way from when he was in the hospital.
I love my Little man.
When it comes to writing, I am finding that I am thinking about it more then doing it. I will not take into consideration that even though I am not working as much as I use to, if any at all, that is also a reason I am not writing as much as I should.
I had previously been talking to a guy who has a car website that I want to write for. It’s very difficult to offer ‘examples’ when there are no examples to give. Everything I know is in my head, my knowledge, my thoughts, my opinions. I have several blogs I need to maintain and keep up with yet I do not.
I have been SO stressed and SO worked up over the new baby. I am scared to coddle him TOO much or not enough. I want him to go ahead and walk, talk yet I want him to remain a baby.
I am hoping that having this mini laptop, I will write every night prior to bed.
We will see.
First and foremost I would like to say that even though things appear to be changing, it does not mean it’s a good thing. We are still in ICU which is never great.
It seems some people feel that with every little moving forward action, it’s a time to celebrate, it is FAR FROM that. Until he is home, it’s not good…period.
They took the tube out yesterday at 4:00 pm. They put him on 70% oxygen and have been suctioning him and giving him chest PT’s to help break it up. As of this moment right now he is still breathing on his own.
They have decided to take out most of his IV’s and start feeding him through his tube in his nose because he is not ready to be mouth fed yet.
We will see how things go and go from there. Keep him in your thoughts.
I received my normal 5am wake up for his daily X-ray. Went to the bathroom and came back and slept for about 3 1/2 more hours; 8:30am. I decided to have another bathroom break and when I walked out, I went downstairs to the cafeteria for something to eat. My breakfast consist of a bagel. When everyone including the people that work here tell you that the food sucks, it is best to listen. I also had first hand experience and they are right. *gag face*
SO I come back to find about 6 women around him. Apparently, he pulled his tube out. Which is exactly what happened next door with a little girl who has the same thing. It is Friday the 13th after all.
Well, they put everything back in and he is ok for now. It seems while it was out he was still struggling and having issues. They decided to paralyze him in a drip so his lungs and him can rest so he will be prepared when they do take it out which it should be soon.
I spoke with the attending yesterday and he said he has the H flu which they have vaccines for it to get rid of it which is good. I spoke with the resident and she said he has Bacterial Pneumonia.
I asked for the Dr to see what is going on and shall share later.
Sitting here watching my son being attached to all these IV’s and tubes and whatnot, is enough to make me go crazy or even postal. (the details of his issues can be found at My mommy Blog ) In this time of great stress, you always have to managed to keep yourself sane. I have done everything from updating My Myspace, My twitter, and even my facebook to keep from going mad. Let’s not consider the fact I am ALREADY crazy just don’t have it on paper. Which is good because I am allowed to have a concealed carry permit. Scary isn’t it?? I have taken pictures of my son, to show people this isn’t as simple as one may think. Even though it seems it’s not a big deal to most, I want you to look at this and tell me it’s no big fucking deal.
With that being said I have had to make myself useful and attempt to keep my humor about me. I did catch one photo op that was intriguing, it is raw so bare with me on that. I will blow it up later
THis is what I have to do while I am waiting for my baby to get better..
I am sitting here trying to figure out what is going on. Being a virual infection, it needs to ‘run it’s course’. What’s sad is I’m ready for the course to be run and ready to take my son and go home. I’m expecting things to get better, but they remain stagnant. They gave him a 2nd blood transfusion and there is no change. His anemia is gone for the time being, and his immune system is great yet he still is in the same condition…..
I am stressed, hurt, worried, depressed, pissy, I have so many emotions running through this head of mine and it is not good.
Postal comes to mind….
Tuesday morning, Mikey woke up crying but you could not hear anything. It was like he was horse. I heard some congestion and called the Dr’s office. They told me there is nothing they could do and no meds they could give him. They said to make sure there was a humidifier in his room. Later that evening, he was feeling hot and not acting right.
I called the Dr on call and told her what was going on. I had just checked his temp and with the ear temp checker, it ranged from 99.9-100.9. She said he needed to get checked in the morning. In the meantime, to give him infant Tylenol, and to call first thing in the morning and schedule an appointment. I went immediately out and bought the tylenol along with baby rub and stick on temp monitor.
I put it on him and it said over 100. She did mention that if at any time I felt uncomfortable or his temp gets over 101 to go to the ER. The next morning I called and made an appointment for 2:15pm.
The whole day he didn’t want any bottle or his pasifer and slept most of the day. I knew something was wrong. I took him to the Dr and he was weighed and temp taken. It was 102.2. not good. The Dr came in and listened to his chest and knew he felt hot. He then consulted with my main Dr and he ordered a chest X-ray and test for flu and pneumonia. Unpon doing that, they concluded that he had pneumonia due to what they heard, saw and the X-ray wasn’t very helpful. They told me they were waiting for a Dr to call back from Pitt on suggestions on what to do. This b/c nash was NOT equipped well for the specialty of children.
So, I waited and cried a little. My friend Kristy who is also a nurse came in and stood with me and let me cry on her shoulder which I greatly appreciated. The whole time I was between phone calls with mom and Thomas. Thomas was on his way home.
After a little bit, the Dr came in and told me that Pitt was sending an ambulance to pick him up and they were waiting for him. To take him to the ER since they did not pick up at a Dr’s office. I drove over there panicing and shaking the ENTIRE time not knowing. They take us back and set him up, take blood, weigh him, take his temp etc. I also find out at this time he is ANEMIC and has a low blood count which attributes to his paleness.
Next thing I know, they said the HELICOPTER is on it’s way and will be here in 17 minutes. Ok, even worse. They confirm that he has pneumonia and the upper part of his right lung has collapsed, yeah you heard me, COLLAPSED. I’m staying strong the ENTIRE time I was breaking down inside. They had 8 nurses at a time in there all trying to get him hooked up and booked up to prep him for Pitt. The helicopter arrives and they introduce themselves. At this time the Dr’s decide to put a tube down his throat since he is struggling so bad to breathe. Needless to say my wonderful Nash general hospital took more then once to do it and cost the helicopter nurses alot of down time and it seemed to waste time. Then it was curled and they had to do it again. THe East Care nurses could have done it, but it wasn’t their house, you know? SO I don’t plan on going back there, ever.
They get him in the incubator and ready for take off. I say my goodbyes and go home. Luckily, the helicopters go over my house in their flight path to and from pitt so I was able to see him on his first helicopter flight even though it was VERY bad circumstances.
IT’s 10:00 and we are finally at Pitt in the Pediatric ICU (PICU). He looks as he does below and they do more work on him assessing the situation. Come to find out he actually has RSV which is a virus and isn’t as bad as pneumonia but could turn worse at any time. His lung was not collapsed, but the virus just blocked the airway and deflated the upper part of the lung.
I am still here and we have to wait it out. He’s not ready to be weened as they tried and it didn’t work well. Last night was bad.
